Fuh! Fuhh!! Whoa..it has been ages since my last post..no wonder it's so dusty..haha! I really really miss writing in this blog..i miss writings!
Well..yeah..been busy back in 2014... Tahun 2014 dah melabuhkan tirainya. I had to admit so many things happen in my life..many ups and downs. Smiles, Laughs, Tears, Happy moments..wow..my life was like a roller coaster. But I thank Allah for all of that. Alhamdulillah..Just wanna share some highlights of my 2014 and new year 2015.
First of all, my baby brother is married!! just can't believe how time flies. It was a very emotional moments..yep..tears of joy of course. But i always cry at weddings what..hiks..anyway, semua orang sebak..Mama lagi la..bukan sebak lagi..lebat terus nangis..Yela, the only son kot.. Yong and me cried..Syima macam tak sebab dia hati kering..haha..Anyway, Congratulations bro..! to my sister in law..welcome to our family! ;)
Moving on..If life is like a fairy tales, I'd probably want to be a princess..
Andailah kan..hidup ini seperti kisah dongeng..well nama pun kisah dongeng..
3 Januari 2015..
Maulidur rasul...selawat ke atas nabi Muhammad S.A.W..Ya Allah..andainya aku dapat bertemu Rasulullah S.A.W...Baginda lelaki terunggul..kalaulah semua lelaki peribadi, akhlak nya macam Nabi Muhammad alangkah bagusnya.
2 Januari 2015..
Tiada kata selain syukur ke hadrat Mu ya Allah kerana masih diberi peluang bernafas..Masih dapat menyambut hari kelahiranku yang ke 29 tahun..Banyak yang telah aku lalui..Hari yang penuh emosi..walau zahirnya aku keseorangan tapi aku sangat bersyukur kerana Kau ada..dan menyambut sehari sebelum maulud nabi..aku sangat2 bersyukur..
Well...there's nothing much to say about my birthday..this year i got no cake..no photos..no new dresses..even no celebration...all i can say is that expectation if not met becomes frustration..
Biarlah hanya aku tahu dan simpan kesedihan itu...rasa itu bila ditinggalkan di hari lahir. Hadiah ulang tahun yang tak akan pernah aku lupakan. Had to admit really sucks actually breaking up on your birthday but nak buat macam mana..what for living in a relationship based on lies and hipocracy. But it's just that i think it's just cruel to end up a relationship on birthdays. Out of 365 days, why on that particular day..? huhuhu..
Terlalu susah ke mencintai diri ini? Susah ke nak membahagiakan diri ini? Tak minta pun hamparan harta dan kemewahan dunia..I've tried my best for it but for some people, best is never enough.
Tak wujud lagi ke keikhlasan? Tak wujud lagi ke cinta sejati yang melangkaui batas rupa paras, darjat dan harta? I know what you had for me is not a true love..sebab hanya aku...
Sekali lagi...aku kecewa...
It's ok lah...It was not okay but I'm done crying..I'm done fixing a broken window..So, I'm moving out...I'm moving on..
May this be a starting point for me to be a better person..a wiser person..
Semoga Allah kurniakan aku imam yang benar...yang mencintaiMu ya Allah agar bertambah tambah cintaku padaMu ya Allah...
Amiinn...InshaAllah... ;)
